Archive for September 2008
I learned a lot this weekend. I called Jules to ask her to come out. I even offered to make lemonade, even though I’m not really that good at it. She was too busy. At first I got upset and started to explain how I need her now. Then she started telling me about all the things going on in her life right now. I will respect her privacy and not share those things here; however, I quickly realized that she has a very complicated life of her own and I was not respecting this. So I apologized.
From there, we talked for hours. It was like we were children again. Near the end of the call, she asked how my Mushroom Men were doing. For nearly two hours, I forgot about them. Excited, I told her all about the ideas and advice people have given me on the blog and how I am going to go out and find my robot and see what the Mushroom Men are up to.
Then Jules got so solemn, she told me that she thinks I should start on a new robot from scratch and make it the best robot the world has ever seen! I was so excited that I spent most of today looking photographs on the hypertext Internet – you know, for inspiration.
Then, tonight, Jules had to remind me to update my blog. When I saw the video we are posting today – I realized I have been wanting to start a new robot all along. It is so clear now. It is a blessing that my last project is gone. Now I can begin new and fresh.
Still, I feel a little sad about my last robot. She was sleek and full of potential. I would have enjoyed seeing her fully operational and complete. But jules reminded me not to dwell on the past.
I am thankful for how full my life is. I will start a new robot. However, I must first deal with the crisis at hand. We still have videos and photographs to share with the world. Getting the word out is key!
I also have a mission – I must infiltrate the Mushroom Men kingdom and get a status update. Visitors to my blog have told me that they are encountering Mushroom Men all around the world. Some claim that they can communicate. I do not know if I can trust these reports, but as the first person to encounter this life form – I MUST FIND OUT!
I almost forgot about this technology until Julie sent me the link for this video. I can not remember what they told me it was called. I felt like I was on a space craft looking at the wild gizmos and contraptions. I still can not believe that this type of device exists here on Earth. Where did it come from? Is it directly related to the Mushroom Men or is there some larger organization behind this? Is it the government? I do not have a clue where to begin looking.
My energy levels are low again. I hope to see Jules for a while this weekend. I must get away from this computer and spend some time somewhere safe and secluded. I have found that this life altering event has taken me so far away from the things I care about most. While I feel this energetic rush inside of me, the new and the profound swelling up like sun bursts; I also have this deep longing to hold on and embrace the man I was before all of this began. My robot is gone, so much time is spent looking for answers, and even though Jules has been there for me – I feel like we are not spending true time together any more. We used to have fun because we wanted to spend time together. Now, most of our interactions seem cold and distant because we are so focused on the mission at hand.
I remember my father saying something so very long ago, “when you find something you love, you have to hold on to it tight with both hands.” It is ironic, how he died.
I feel like I am finally getting inside – much how I felt in this video. I have been tracking down stories on the hypertext Interwebs about this “Mushroom Men Game”. I have been getting involved in the disucssions and warning people. Hopefully they will listen, come to this site, and be saved.
My mother used to say that we all have a mission in life, just like the Lord Jesus Christ does. I am not so sure I carry my mother’s faith, but I hear her words when I am doing this work. I finally understand how Jesus must have felt – to know something so profound and yet have other scoff at you. It would be painful if it were not for the the fact that I know what I must do and I know I am doing the right thing.
On a reader recomendation, I have decided that fire would be an excellent weapon when I return to the back acres of my property in search of my robot. I also plan to take some kind of club or stick. How do I defend myself from their mental powers? How do I keep myself sane? Is there some kind of armor I can wear?
What in the world is this? Jules was helping me get the next video going and over on the youtelevision site, they have this “related” box with my videos. This was in it! This music sounds hypnotic and evil and it is called “going insane”. What is Infected Mushroom? Is that what I have, normal mushrooms that have somehow been infected?
By the way, I have updated the “About” page as Nate suggested. I forget that some viewers here may be new. How many of you are there out there? How do I tell?
Mushrooms are telepathic. I began to realize the full extent of this while in New York. I decided to do some research on the Wikipedia project. I am horrified by psilocybin mushrooms. I have been finding story after story of the power of these mushrooms. I had no idea that the influence was so well documented. Look at this range of what people felt while under the influence:
- mood lift, euphoria
- giggling, laughter, giddiness
- creative, philosophical or deep thinking : ideas flow more easily
- boring tasks or entertainment can become more interesting or funny
- sensation of insight
- life changing spiritual experience
- intense feelings of wonder
- paradoxical feeling of a normalcy and deep alteration of psyche
- may interrupt cluster sequences in those suffering from cluster headaches [ Cluster Headache Treatment ]
- feeling more emotionally sensitive
- general change in consciousness (as with many psychoactives)
- time perception alteration [ Wittmann 2006 ]
- time seems to pass more slowly (minutes seem to take hours)
- lights seem brighter, sensitivity to light
- starring and rainbow patterns around pinpoint lights
- increased detection of motion in peripheral vision
- closed-eye visuals (common at medium or stronger dose)
- sleepiness, lethargy
- pupil dilation
- sensation of energy or buzzing in the nevous system/peripheral limbs
- memories come to life
- intense feelings of fear
- headache, usually as effects wear off, sometimes beginning the next day, lasting for up to 24 hours
- nausea, gas, gastrointestinal discomfort, especially when dry mushrooms eaten raw
- mild to severe anxiety
- dizziness, confusion
- lightheadedness or fainting (in cases of lowered blood pressure)
- can precipitate or exacerbate latent or existing mental disorders
- working memory disruption (reduced ability to do tasks requiring current remembering and attention)
If this does not strike fear into your heart, what possibly can? These Mushroom Men must have amazing powers. Most of what I have been reading totally confuses me. One thing that confuses me, I keep reading about “eating” these mushrooms. I have been experiencing many of the effects listed, mostly the negative ones. I have been experiencing fear, anxiety, headache, dizziness, confusion, memory disruption, sleepiness, and my eyes are more sensitive to the light. I did not want to mention this, but I have also experienced the gastrointestinal discomfort. I thought it was the fish I had in New York, but now I see it is all part of their plan as well.
Speaking of sleep, I can not seem to stay awake these past few days. I went driving around looking for any signs of my missing robot. I was not yet ready to venture back into my property. I thought maybe a neighbor borrowed her or someone might have accidently thrown her out in the trash. I suppose I know where she is, I was just not ready to go searching back… there… again. What do the mushrooms wants with her?
I thought I was fully recovered, but New York took a little more out of me than I expected. Actually, maybe it is the loss of my robot. I have searched all over my work shop and in the trailer. I looked out in the barn. Nothing. Maybe they took her. What would they want with a half finished robot?
Jules pestered me back to reality. I am focused again. Jules, you mean the world to me.
So this video here, this was the line outside. Strange, is it not? People standing in the rain waiting to get in? I just hope I was not too late.
If they took her… sorry, thinking about my robot again but… If they took her, maybe I should… Actually, I am a little scared to look for her. Imagine how adanced their technology may have become. If I go back out on the property, I may want to arm myself this time.
My head is still a little foggy, I am going to take another nap. Wait, it is late. It is dark out. I guess I should just go to bed. It is so hard to keep track any more. Maybe it is them, maybe they are making me sleep.
I still have not made it out to explore my property yet. I have been resting up. Jules started getting the videos setup while I was asleep. This first one was recorded before the Nintendo event began. I do not understand what mind game has all of these people tricked into patiently waiting outside in the cold and wet. I told them, I told them all about the Mushroom Men.
Now that I am refreshed, I should have all of the new videos on this hypertext site very quickly. I can not express what an amazing treasure my Niece has been to me over the course of all of this. These young minds grasp technology so much more quickly than those of us with a few years of life experience holding us back.
I must say, even well rested and refreshed, even with the brilliant hope of a brighter day tomorrow – I have a tremendous weight inside my chest. I can not put into words this deep feeling of loss radiating from inside of me. It is like holding a thousand pound heart under my ribs. Each beat is a thud that pushes my shoulders apart and closes off the back of my throat. I collapsed and cried this morning. My robot project seems to be missing.