Archive for September 26th, 2008
A Look At Their Technology
I almost forgot about this technology until Julie sent me the link for this video. I can not remember what they told me it was called. I felt like I was on a space craft looking at the wild gizmos and contraptions. I still can not believe that this type of device exists here on Earth. Where did it come from? Is it directly related to the Mushroom Men or is there some larger organization behind this? Is it the government? I do not have a clue where to begin looking.
My energy levels are low again. I hope to see Jules for a while this weekend. I must get away from this computer and spend some time somewhere safe and secluded. I have found that this life altering event has taken me so far away from the things I care about most. While I feel this energetic rush inside of me, the new and the profound swelling up like sun bursts; I also have this deep longing to hold on and embrace the man I was before all of this began. My robot is gone, so much time is spent looking for answers, and even though Jules has been there for me – I feel like we are not spending true time together any more. We used to have fun because we wanted to spend time together. Now, most of our interactions seem cold and distant because we are so focused on the mission at hand.
I remember my father saying something so very long ago, “when you find something you love, you have to hold on to it tight with both hands.” It is ironic, how he died.
